I remember the first time I saw a nude male masturbating.​I couldn’t believe my eyes,and my heart started thumping so loud I thought everyone around could hear it.​I was speechless;it felt like I was having an out of body experience.​It felt weird, like I was breaking some sort of social code,but I was also kind of curious.​

I couldn’t help but stare in awe,I felt like I was both repulsed and drawn in.​And no matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t look away.​It was like an orgasmic act with each stroke and movement creating a new kind of energy and desire.​It was something I could never forget.​And in that moment I realized I didn’t just want to watch,I wanted to be a part of the journey.​

So I made it through all the awkwardness, and found my way into the room.​It was a mix of feelings at first.​Part of me was scared, another part was excited.​But somehow they melded together into the most beautiful thing I’d ever experienced.​I felt the energy all around me and couldn’t help but become aroused.​Time seemed to stand still in that moment and I felt completely alive.​

I started to take my own journey, touching myself and exploring my own body.​I was in a unique space where fear, pleasure, and adrenaline all coexisted together in harmony.​The feeling was amazing and I never wanted it to end.​But eventually it did, sex dolls and dildos I couldn’t help but feel a strange sense of loss.​

I still think back to that experience often;it was a life-changing encounter that will stay with me forever.​When I think of it I still feel a sense of excitement.​It’s a reminder to me that it’s okay to tap into my desires, to explore, and to let go.​Now, it’s something that I do regularly as part of my practice of self-care.​

It’s taught me to hold myself sacred, to honor my sexuality, and to take pleasure in all areas of my life.​I feel like I can let go of all the inhibitions and just let my body be free.​It’s both a powerful and empowering experience.​

Now, I realize that nude male masturbation isn’t for everyone, and that we all can have very different opinions about it.​But for those of us who choose to indulge, it can be liberating and beautiful.​It can be our little secret just between you and me.​And it can open your eyes to new experiences that are both exhilarating and eye opening.​